For you, I undress down to the sheaths of my nerves. I remove my jewelry and sit it on the nightstand, I unhook my ribs, spread my lungs flat on a chair. I dissolve like a remedy in water, in wine. I spill without staining, and leave without stirring the air. I do for love. For love, I disappear.



You got a fast car, I want a ticket to anywhere. Maybe we make a deal, maybe together we can get somewhere. Any place is better. Starting from zero, got nothing to lose. Maybe we'll make something. But me, myself - I got nothing to prove. You got a fast car, and I got a plan to get us out of here. I been working at the convenience store, managed to save just a little bit of money. We won't have to drive too far, just cross the border and into the city. You and I can both get jobs, and finally see what it means to be living.



They say nothing lasts forever, neither time or space nor weather. We're gonna make it through together, cause baby nothing lasts forever. I could be the eye of your storm. If you let me baby, I could be the eye of your storm. We can't outrun this thunder cloud that we've been living under. The rain is gonna fall, you're not alone in this mess. I am on your side, I'm your best bet.

With my fingertips I trace on your bare skin all of the things I'd like to say but cannot speak. You mean everything. There are not quite words enough to tell you all the things that you've become for me.



You are lovely tonight. You, dear, will guide me into the morning light. You are lovely tonight. Lay here beside me, I see the rest of my life with you. All my life I've lived alone without you. All this time, I couldn't find where to belong. And you would be the last thing I saw coming, I'm still surprised.



With you by my side, the world spins as it is supposed to. For the moment when your lips are touching mine, nothing bad is happening anywhere. It is just us, in a dream, in a perfectly happy world where sadness ceases to exist when I'm with you.



"Pain, you just have to ride it out, hope it goes away on its own, hope the wound that caused it heals. There are no solutions, no easy answers, you just breath deep and wait for it to subside. Most of the time pain can be managed but sometimes the pain gets you where you least expect it. Hits way below the belt and doesn’t let up. Pain, you just have to fight through, because the truth is you can’t outrun it and life always makes more."

Things have been getting kind of heavy these days. Trying to figure out what road to take. There’s many decisions to be made, and the only time I feel okay is when I’m in your arms. You’ve got me missing you all day long, from the second I wake up to the second my day is done. With every breath I take in, I'll swear on every inch of my lungs, I’m with you.



Everyone says love hurts, but that isn't true. Loneliness hurts. Rejection hurts. Losing someone hurts. Envy hurts. Everyone gets these things confused with love, but in reality love is the only thing in this world that covers up all pain and makes someone feel wonderful again. Love is the only thing in this world that does not hurt.



"On a side note, you can’t love without risk. Sometimes love is a terrible idea, except that it’s not an idea. Sometimes love leaves suddenly and it’s as if you were lying to the other person all this time, or they were lying to you. Sometimes you love someone and they don’t love you back the way you want to be loved back and you think if they’ll just hear your case, if you present the evidence before them as if in a court of law, they will concede to your argument and love you the way you love them, forever even, and then you both get to be happy. But that’s not how it works. You jump from the plane and hope your parachute opens. The other person is that parachute. If you can, jump over water, and from not too great a height. But what am I saying here? As if you had a choice; as if love was a conscious decision. As if, 'But it will never work' was some kind of valid argument."



Songs and smells will bring you back to a moment in time more than anything else. It’s amazing how much can be conjured with a few notes of a song or a solitary whiff of a room. A song you didn’t even pay attention to at the time, a place that you didn’t even know had a particular smell.



Wanna pack your bags, something small?
Take what you need, and we disappear
Without a trace, we'll be gone
The moon and the stars can follow the car
And then when we get to the ocean
We're gonna take a boat to the end of the world
All the way to the end of the world
Oh, and when the kids are old enough
We're gonna teach them to fly
You and me together, we could do anything, baby



You got a fast car, and we go cruising to entertain ourselves. You still ain't got a job, and I work in a market as a checkout girl. I know things will get better, you'll find work and I'll get promoted. We'll move out of the shelter, buy a big house and live in the suburbs. I remember we were driving, driving in your car. The speed so fast I felt like I was drunk. City lights lay out before us, and your arm felt nice wrapped 'round my shoulder. And I had a feeling that I belonged. And I had a feeling I could be someone.



I feel like my life is so scattered right now. Like it's all these small pieces of paper and someone's turned on the fan. Bur talking to you makes me feel like the fan's been turned off for a little bit. Like things could actually make sense. You completely unscatter me, and I appreciate that so much.



“When I was younger, I never had a very clear idea of what I wanted to be when I was older, I just knew that I didn’t want to become miserable. Especially as I associated that misery with some sort of daily grind, of going to the work in the morning, sitting at a desk or selling things to people, and then coming home late, trying to fit in a little time for yourself, and then going to sleep and doing the same thing the next day, similarly to what my father did, and what his father did. That never appealed to me, it really scared me actually, because it would only lead me to becoming older and more miserable.”

Fall head over heels. I say find someone you can love like crazy and who'll love you the same way back. And how do you find him? Forget your head and listen to your heart. Run the risk, if you get hurt, you'll bounce back. Because, the truth is there is no sense living your life without this. To make the journey and not fall deeply in love - well, you haven't lived a life at all. You have to try. Because if you haven't tried, you haven't lived.



"My simplest advice to everyone out there - if hurts, let go. Life is way too short to waste any time at all. You’re only young for so long, and every moment you spend dwelling on the things that only cause you to hurt, is precious time wasted where you could have been out adventuring around, making more memories to look back on. Nobody wants to remember the nights they sat around crying. They look back at the adventures they had while they were young. The good nights, days - whatever. And when you find someone where it feels like the first time every time, don’t let that go. Don’t give up without a fight. To hell with anybody who makes you feel like you’re ordinary. Don’t waste your time. And I’m not kidding, when you find this person, hold tight and do not ever let them go. It rarely happens. And you’ll know it, because it’s when you feel most alive. It’s a pretty shitty world, no jokes. But you can be happy if you want to be." (c) sweetestsin_ox



Sometimes it just takes patience for everything to happen. You won't get respect in just one day, you can't be in love with someone that you just met, and you won't be able to forgive yourself in a second. I've learned that helping people is good, but helping someone too much won't let them grow. You grow by making mistakes, getting hurt, learning from your regrets. Thoughts are there to help guide you to your decision. It's you that has to take that first step onto the pathway of happiness. It's your doing that makes you who you are. Don't assume, get your facts straight; that's what messes a lot of people up. There's always the true story and reasoning behind everything. We are all different, but have one thing in common; we all want happiness. It's like we're all trying to fight for it, trying to get what we want and it makes us forget the whole reason why we wanted it in the first place. Nobody said life was going to be easy. Life is what you make of it. Change for the better, don't change for someone else, change for yourself. Don't be selfish. Don't limit yourself from doing things just because you don't think you can make it through. Remember, time isn't going to wait for you, so make the best of it.



We'll take this city and by nightfall, the bright lights are calling. Everything is going our way. Everything is just as we've planned. This is our future from what we've heard, and I've still got your hand. And it feels like we could last forever, and I'm not doing this alone.



And it's true I can't go on without you. Your smile makes me see clearer. If you could only see in the mirror what I see. And you're slowly shaking finger tips show that you're scared like me so let's pretend we're alone. And I know you may be scared, and I know we're unprepared, but I don't care.

I'll cross my heart and hope to die before I have the chance to lie, to you, my dear, who I wish no harm. But I know in the end this will turn out wrong. See, I've been known to fall in love. But sometimes love just is not enough. And my heart will stray before too long. So please forgive me for when I sing this song.



When we fall in love with someone, there's a moment when we take a picture of that person - an emotional snapshot - that we carry with us forever. If we're lucky, if we're very, very lucky, the person we fall in love with will always resemble that snapshot.



If you feel your grip getting loose, just know that I won't let you down. I'm ready to run away with you. Are you ready to run away with me? Pack your things, we can leave today. Say our goodbyes and get on the train. Just you and I in the sweet unknown. We can just call each other our home.

"Being with you is like dancing in the summer rain. It's like sleeping in my own bed after I've been away for too long. It's like miles of highway stretching out before me, with no other cars in view. It's like running through sprinklers on a scorching day. It's like receiving a letter I've waited so long for. It's like finishing a five thousand-piece puzzle. Life's not perfect, but when you're with me, it's pretty damn close."



This happiness surpasses me, just running up and down my spine. Whenever I'm around you, my smile beings to shine. The love I feel for you is quite hard for anyone to find. You're the one that I want to wake up next to, just give me your beautiful blue eyes. Please never, ever leave me. Just stay right here, always by my side.



We lie together. Smiling and holding on to each other and the night and the moment. We stare into each other's eyes and softly kiss, speaking and saying more with the movement of our lips and the tips of our fingers, more than words will allows us to say. Words can't say this. The one word love means too little for what it is. It means everything and that is still not enough. It doesn’t communicate even a fraction of the feelings involved. Love. The word is not enough for what it is. Love. Love.



You are the morning sky, glowing calm with burning light. And as I am waking up, you paint your reflection in my eye. I wonder if you've noticed I can't look away. You're inches from my fingertips. I've come as close as I can get. I'm reaching, but the rest is up to you. 'Cause I don't ever wanna miss being here with you like this.



Well I've made up my mind that I want you to be the one, the one I wanna be with when I'm ninety-two. 'Cause I know, you know it can't get much better. Fireworks flyin' whenever we're together. I know, you know, that I know you love me. I just wanna feel you tonight, making sure the moment's just right. I could die just staring in your eyes. I just wanna feel your heartbeat, hold you even closer to me. Fall asleep with you right by my side. We'll see fireworks tonight. And I've waited all my life to make this perfect every way, and sharing it with you would make it even more than that.

And I guess we made it, or at least made it this far, and it all looks smooth from here. And in a future day there may be waves, but I must say the skies have never looked so clear. And I guess we made it, cause it ain't far to go from here.



Do you take advantage of your time, because you only live once? Do you ever analyze your life, and find empty spaces? And every now and then it seems like I'm always sinking. And every now and then you feel like you're never living.



"It's so strange how life works: You want something and you wait and wait and feel like it’s taking forever to come. Then it happens and it’s over and all you want to do is curl back up in that moment before things changed."

And we wait above a road, we're turning to go home. And the silence from the side of the car tells me everything and how we are. Cause there's no more trying to make this so right. There's no more trying tonight. And you know it's not so easy when you're all alone. And I wonder if I'm alone in your head. I know something is wrong, I just don't know what to do. You say it's only me, and, that I'm so perfect for you. Twelve days gone by since I have saw you last. I'll give this one more try, I'll give it all my best. And I'll ask, what could you be doing that is so much fun Without me by your side? Without me by your side.



Time, really, has never healed anything. What time does is blur your memory. The more time passes, the more the memories blur and you begin to forget the details, his words, the moments. All time really does is help you to forget how he made you feel.



I've considered what it'd be like if the ocean poured in from both of the coasts, and we set sail to find out just where our boat would go. But I don't think that I'd want to know, cause it would just make time so I could see your smile, with our brand new life in tow. And I hope you weren't waiting long, I hope this night makes up for time lost. Feels like I met you years ago, and we're picking up right where we left off.



You're the brightest star in a pocket full of skies. My colored picture in a world of black and white. My only dream come true in a restless winter night. My only dream come true.



It took a few weeks for me to comprehend, you're more than just another passing trend. And you make it feel so right. I'm not as shy, I can open up and share my life. You are the reason smiles exist at all.



One day we'll get out of this shitty apartment. One day is all it takes for things to turn around. Now all I know is I got you and you got me, babe, and when that morning comes I'll make coffee and you'll read the paper. We'll talk about our plans and I'll keep saying how lucky we are.



"Sometimes the things that may or may not be true are the things a man needs to believe in the most. That people are basically good; that honor, courage, and virtue mean everything; that power and money, money and power mean nothing; that good always triumphs over evil; and I want you to remember this: that love, true love, never dies. You remember that. Doesn't matter if it’s true or not. You see, a man should believe in those things, because those are the things worth believing in."



And storms will surely come, but true love is a choice you must make, and you are the one that I have set my heart to choose. As long as I live, I swear I’ll see this through. Come what may, I won’t abandon you or leave you behind, because love is a loyalty sworn, not a burning for a moment. Come what may, I will be standing right here by your side. I won’t run away, though the storm’s getting worse and there's no end in sight.



Lately I've been hoping you can stay with me, and I could hold you close 'til the end of time. Maybe someday we will grab some change and run away, but for now I'll learn to say goodbye. How could I survive without your love and the hope you bring? Even when the world is breaking down, I know I have you, and it's all I need.



Because how I ever got to you, I have no idea. It's like some secret door, well it just appeared. So no matter what I do from now on with my time, you will always stay here, in my mind. I am certain of this, and I am not certain of anything.

You are the reoccurring kind, you never really leave my mind. Are you the love of my lifetime? 'Cause there have been times I have had my doubts. We were just kids when I first kissed you in the attic of my parents house. And I wish we were there now. It took so long to figure out what this book has been about.



I got lightning in my veins and thunder in my chest. All tangled up with you and trying to catch my breath. It’s like flying down some back road at midnight with you eyes closed and the headlights off. I’ve been searching everywhere, can’t find that feeling anywhere. You’re all I want now.



"Someone real,” I hear myself saying. “Someone who never has to pretend, and who I never have to pretend around. Someone who’s smart, but knows how to laugh at himself. Someone who would listen to a symphony and start to cry, because he understands music can be too big for words. Someone who knows me better than I know myself. Someone I want to talk to first thing in the morning and last thing at night. Someone I feel like I’ve known my whole life, even if I haven’t.



All I want to have is all that you can give me, and I'll give right back everything I have in me. Cause nothing ever felt as right as this does right now. I'll go back to before we met, try and erase the past. Try harder to forget, cause nothing will ever be as good as here and now. Cause when I looked into your eyes, and you dared to stare right back; you should have said, "Nice to meet you, I'm your other half."


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Come with me and we’ll drive all night, through this town, under streetlights. We were two kids with no worries. Everything was wrong, but it felt so right. As long as you were on my side, on my side tonight. With the windows down and the radio at full blast, your hair in the wind, you know I can’t handle that. Let’s pause this moment in time. We’ll stay here forever. Let’s stay here forever.



I will remember your small room, the feel of you, the light in the window, your records, your books, our morning coffee, our noons, our nights, our bodies spilled together, sleeping, the tiny flowing currents, immediate and forever. Your leg, my leg, your arm, my arm, your smile and the warmth of you who made me laugh again.



“We need others. We need others to love and we need to be loved by them. There is no doubt that without it, we too, like the infant left alone, would cease to grow, cease to develop, choose madness and even death.”



I think that when you fall in love with someone, every single day you spend with them you fall in love with them even more. It’s like you find something else to love about them everyday. The way they laugh, the way they sneeze, even the way they blink. I think that’s how relationships last. When things are exciting, everyday you spend with that person is like an adventure into their soul.



And I am content to walk a little slower, because there is nowhere that I really need to be. I find that life is easier when it is just a blur, with no details to confuse who or what or where I was. So when the ending comes, the full regret will be obscure. But these are days we dream about, when the sunlight paints us gold. And this apartment could not be prettier, as when we danced up there alone. And if you close your eyes, we will always be the way we were that night.



“Some people bring out the worst in you, others bring out the best, and then there are those remarkably rare, addictive ones who just bring out the most. Of everything. They make you feel so alive that you’d follow them straight into hell, just to keep getting your fix.”

I watched you sleeping quietly in my bed. You don't know this now, but there's some things that need to be said. And it's all that I can hear, it's more than I can bare. What if I fall and hurt myself? Would you know how to fix me? What if I went and lost myself? Would you know where to find me? If I forgot who I am, would you please remind me? Cause without you, things go hazy.



It's not a silly little moment, it's not the storm before the calm. This is the deep and dying breath of this love that we've been working on. Can't seem to hold you like I want to, so I can feel you in my arms. Nobody's gonna come and save you, we pulled too many false alarms. We're going down, and you can see it too. We're going down, and you know that we're doomed. I was the one you always dreamed of, you were the one I tried to draw. How dare you say it's nothing to me? You're the only light I ever saw.



Close lipped, another goodnight kiss is robbed of all it's passion. Your grip another time is slack, it leaves me feeling empty. I'll wait until tomorrow, maybe you'll feel better then; maybe we'll be better then. So what's another day, when I can't bear these nights of thoughts of going on without you. This mood of yours is temporary. It seems worth the wait to see your smile again.



You even sleep over sometimes, but we stay in our clothes. I'm only there so that you're not alone. And you say that I hurt you, in a voice like a prayer. Yeah, you say that I've hurt you, and your voice is like a prayer. Yeah well maybe I hurt you sometimes, but let's contrast and compare. Lift up your shirt, the wound isn't there. I guess that your truth is just the ghost of your lies. Yeah, your kind of truth, darling, is just the ghost of your lies. I see through them all the time. So I'm pouring some whiskey, I'm gonna get drunk. Yeah, I'm pouring myself some whiskey, I'm going to get real fucking drunk. I'm pouring some whiskey right now, I'm going to get so, so drunk that I pass out, forget your face, by the time I wake up.

And I hope lightning strikes me down, I'll show you and this whole town that I'm one in a million. I never wanted to fit in any place except your heart, but we grew apart. Now rainy days are all I have and I keep dreaming in the past. You keep me awake, no more I can take. And I'm still breathing, you keep me breathing.



"I’ve spent most of my life and most of my friendships holding my breath and hoping that when people get close enough they won’t leave, and fearing that it’s a matter of time before they figure me out and go."



We're not the same, dear, as we used to be. The seasons have changed and so have we. There was little we could say, and even less that we could do, to stop the ice from getting thinner under me and you. We bury our love in the wintery grave. Along came the snow, was all that remained. But we stayed by its side, as the days turned to weeks. And the ice kept getting thinner with every word that we'd speak. And when spring arrived, we were taken by surprise when the flows under our feetled into the sea. Nothing was left for you and me.

I used to hold you like it's all that I had. Now begins the falling out, we are like a passing fad. Your mouth would crack a smile if I were spoken of, 'till tonight you never thought you'd lose this epic battle with love. And although you're sleeping right next to me, it feels like you are wide awake in a distant dream, leading a life that is finally free of these endless nights and countless fights that turn us into who we hate to be. And this is so difficult for the both of us. I know we tried so hard, there's just no hope for us. Well it's more than a shame that we lost to this game. All my walking, talking, sleeping, breathing - nothing will ever be the same.



Even though everything had ended, I didn’t regret it. I never regretted it, not for one second. How do you regret one of the best nights of your life? You don’t. You remember every word, every look. Even when it hurts, you still remember.



I hear you’ve ended up fine, and I’ve heard you’re making out alright. I’ve heard you still don’t like the cold outside, and I’ve heard you still got trouble tracking time. And I heard you said one time, that I never even fucking cross your mind. I guess I’ll act like that’s fine, but you should know that you cross mine all the time.



I dreamt of a fever, one that would cure me of this cold, winter-set heart. I drink to stay warm and to kill selected memories. Cause I just can't think anymore about that. And I give myself three days to feel better. Or else I swear I'll drive right off a fucking cliff. Because if I can't learn to make myself feel better, how can I expect anyone else to give a shit?

Excuse me while I let your secrets out; does it comfort you to think about how wonderful this was up until now? Cause this is closure once and for all. Oh, this has to stop right now. Cause I've been running for my life, and you could never catch me now. So I guess I'll just get going, I've got better topics now. And I'm off to find some blank pages to write all of them down. Because these ones have been dirtied with the mentioning of you, and you know I wouldn't say I hate you if it wasn't true. So I guess I'll cut my losses cause I lost a lot. I guess I'll quit complaining and I'll starting walking it off. Because there is no point in living in a past with that unhappiness. Consider it a promise we both broke. Consider it mistakes on both our parts.



Life will break you. Nobody can protect you from that, and living alone won’t either, for solitude will also break you with its yearning. You have to love. You have to feel. It is the reason you are here on earth. You are here to risk your heart. You are here to be swallowed up.



Too many guys think I'm a concept, or I complete them, or I'm gonna make them alive. But I'm just a fucked-up girl who's lookin' for my own peace of mind. Don't assign me yours.

You've been around for such a long time now, and maybe I could leave you, but I don't know how. And why should I be lonely every night, when I could be with you? Oh yes, you make it right. I don't listen to the boys who say that you're bad for me and I should turn you away. Cause they don't know about us, they've never heard of love. I get a feeling when I look at you. Wherever you go now, I wanna' be there too. They say we're crazy, but I just don't care. And if they keep on talking, still they'll get nowhere. I don't mind if they don't understand, when I look at you and you hold my hand. Cause they don't know about us. They've never heard of love.



For any time I’ve looked inside myself and seen a big, black void of emptiness. For all those nights I outlined my life passions to wish that I was memory less. Can I just say how worth the wait it’s been? Can I just say that I would do this again? Because now I know I have you in the end, so maybe I would burn them all instead. There is a point to all this, there’s a point to me. There’s a home I have made in your heart as it beats. And to it’s rhythm I will sing.



You know that feeling where everything feels right? Where you don't have to worry about tomorrow or yesterday, where you feel safe and know you're doing the best you can? There's a word for that, it's called love.

I want to be the surgeon that cuts you open, that fixes all of life’s mistakes. I want to be the house that you were raised in, the only place that you feel safe. I want to be a shower in the morning that wakes you up and makes you clean. I know I’m just the weather against your window as you sleep through a winter’s dream.



You and I, cold February night; it's been a half an hour. Taking sweet time saying our goodbyes, one minute more. The best day of my life is all thanks to you. Precious remembrance saved for rainy days, or February. Few scenes from my life or moments mean more to me than our fine nights. I remember like yesterday, the time of my life. Please don't leave me without saying goodbye.



Let's make a date out of the cinema, then stay out till early in the morning. I always like it cause we take it slow While everyone around us seems so hurried. It feels familiar cause I've been here before, when your words swept the ground right from under me. Remember when you were so insecure? Now you can't get your hands up off of me.



“I woke up this morning and knew that I loved you more than ever. Sometimes I get scared that this feeling will slip away into something less than the wonderfulness it is now. So I’ve got a plan. Let’s capture how we feel right now and keep it forever.”

Oh, how you laughed at my complete lack of grace. But I could not recall a more perfect fall, cause when I looked up into your eyes, it didn't hurt at all. And I thought, be still my heart. This could be a brand new start, with you. And it will be clear, if I wake up and you're still here with me in the morning.



The secret isn't to find someone you love spending time with, I love spending time with a lot of people. The secret isn’t to find someone that you find attractive. I find a lot of people attractive for many different reasons. The secret isn’t to find someone who is nice, there are tons of nice people in the world. The secret is to find someone who wants exactly what you want. Someone who is ready to give you all they’ve got, and in turn be ready to accept all the love you have to give. The world is filled with people in relationship teeter-totters of “loves you more” + “I have to act mean so they will like me back” or “I am just not ready.” Please do not waste any more of your precious time. You are an amazing creature. You deserve to be loved until your insides melt. Don’t give up on all the things you want. When you meet the right person you will have zero doubt in your mind. Zero.

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"I just have to say this one thing, and it's really important that you listen to me. It just doesn't feel like this thing is ever gonna go away. It's always there. I can't get on with my life. The things that we have with each other; I don't have with any other person, with any other human being. We should be with each other."



With every moment we share, every smile, every touch, I become more certain that in you, I've found something I've looked for a very long time. I don't know what the future holds, but I do know how much your love excites me and how happy I feel when I'm with you. And, from this day forward, that's more than enough.



"I mean, I got everything I need right here with me. I got air in my lungs, a few blank sheets of paper. I mean, I love waking up in the morning not knowing what’s gonna happen, or who I’m gonna meet, where I’m gonna wind up. I figure life is a gift and I don’t intend on wasting it. You don’t know what hand you’re gonna get dealt next. You learn to take life as it comes at you, to make each day count."



I've heard so many times, "you've got to take love slow." That's just something said by unsure people who don't know what it's like to fall, when you fall with all your heart. Wanting to be together every second you're apart. Must not know what it feels like to feel like this. Longing for each moment, waiting for each kiss. I could never love you enough.



I don't want this day to end, I don't want this day to end. In the summer I give a little love to Third Eye Blind, cause I'm just a messed up kid stuck in the middle of a semi-charmed kinda life. Goddamn, I love the feeling I get when I hear that song. Yeah, it's a wonder that the hope we built still works. Cause all you ever say about love is how it hurts. And I just wanna be someone you remember; something good you could lean on.



Everybody's so lonely lately. I don't need a damn book to save me. So celebrated, but I think I hate it now. I never said I'd be the one to figure out that something's wrong. It's the end of the world and all anyone can think about's themselves. All my friends and all my towns are just here till I hit the ground. I guess I'm better, I'm better off loving myself.

Sometimes I pray I don't die, I'm a goddamn hypocrite. But the night rolls around, and it all starts making sense. There is no right way or wrong way, you just have to live. And so I do what I do, and at least I exist. What could mean more than this?



It's up to you to find beauty in the ugliest days. Don't you waste your life waiting for it to change. Just put on your dancing shoes and dance those cares away. If I'm The Sound Of Music, you're The Science of Sleep. Cause I'm obviously, and you're obviously, too young to care, too bold to love. Too naive to notice that sometimes all you need is some love to get by, to be alright, even when the world's falling off it's axis. I need a new love, someone to help me home when I'm drunk and can't stand up. Someone to tell me wrong from right, so I won't screw it up again. Maybe we could wait til the sunset sank, and devise a new plan to start over again.



Now that I’m older, I know much more than I did back then. But the more I learn, the more I can’t understand. And I’ve become content with this life that I lead, where I drink too much and don’t believe in much of anything. And I lie to myself and say it’s for the best.



And I've made myself the fool who's fallen for you. So let me down softly this time, and I wont have to come back crying. It'd be better to forget you, but I don't really want to. Energy spent trying to believe you're not worth it, you don't deserve it. But I wish you did, cause I can't live without this.



I just have to tell you, I'm not so sure what I would do without you. I know it's cold outside, but would you want to go for a ride? Cause this late night's just no fun without you. And I just wanted to say thanks, you're the only reason I've smiled in days.



Any minute I'm not with you, I hope I'll see you soon. There's just something that happens when you walk into the room. And instantly, I feel so complete. It hits me right about the time you kiss my cheek. And you give me this feeling, it's like no other feeling, but it knocks me off my feet.

“When you are attracted to people, it’s because of the details. Their kindness. Their eyes. The fact that they can get you to laugh when you need it the most.”



I think you could fall in love with anyone if you saw the parts of them no one else gets to see. Like if you followed them around invisibly for a day and saw them crying in their bed at night or singing in the shower or humming quietly to themselves as they make a sandwich or even just walking along the street. And even if they were really weird and had no friends at school, I think, after seeing them at their most vulnerable, you wouldn’t be able to help falling in love with them.



I won't be sad. But in case, I'll go there everyday, to make myself feel bad. There's a chance I'll start to wonder if this was the thing to do. I won't be out long, but I still think it better if you take your time coming over here. I think that's for the best. Call, break it off. Call, break my own heart. Maybe I would have been something you'd be good at. Maybe you would have been something I'd be good at. But now we'll never know.

"Maybe there’s something you’re afraid to say, or someone you’re afraid to love, or somewhere you’re afraid to go. It’s gonna hurt. It’s gonna hurt because it matters."



I’ve been giving up on people too easily. If they don’t call, if they don’t try - then I don’t. It’s not fair to lay the blame on them when I’m not calling either. I’m just as much at fault. I’ve got a lot of resentment for old friends - for letting me go without a fight. I just want someone to call and say, ‘I miss you, how are you?’ I just want to call someone and say, ‘I miss you, I’m sorry.’ I want to be brave enough to stay in one place.



Maybe the way we feel isn’t supposed to be logical, to be rational. Maybe it’s okay to be unsure and scared. Maybe we lose so we learn to let go, and maybe we leave in order to grow, to blossom in to who we’re meant to be. Maybe some things aren’t supposed to make sense. Maybe you have to take risks to get what you deserve. Maybe we shouldn’t underestimate our potential. Maybe we shouldn’t set limitations or boundaries. Maybe life is divine chaos. Maybe it’s okay to love ourselves. Maybe we don’t need everything we want. Maybe we shouldn’t fear the unknown, but embrace it, learn from it. Maybe someone can exceed your expectations. Maybe we can control our destinies after all. Maybe we have to fight for what we believe in. Maybe, just maybe, we should stop second guessing ourselves and just jump in.



"Predictable doesn’t always mean boring. Lust doesn’t always mean love. Near doesn’t always mean close. New doesn’t always mean exciting. Different doesn’t always mean better. Far doesn’t always mean distant. Knowing everything doesn’t make you wise. Knowing the truth doesn’t make you superior. Knowing your problem doesn’t solve it. Sitting between your past and future doesn’t mean you’re in the present."

I said sorry to make you happy. I kissed cuts to dry your tears. I sold my clothes to keep you warm, then you threw me away even after all these years. Now who can I sing with when everything's gone to hell? And I can't remember my own name. I hope that you know I loved you a lot. It wasn't the alcohol talking at four in the morning, it was the boy that you met in the hall years ago. So don't forget me. Don't you let me become a photograph that you maybe look at once every year or so, just to recall the way you let me become a ghost. I'm not alright, and don't say that I will be. I loved you, but you didn't love me.



Well we could carve hearts out of falling stars, chase the wind down the winding streets, ride in cars for hours to nowhere. We're a mess, but that's fine, cause it's you and me. We're a mess, but that's fine. We don't need no time to keep up with the days. Hey, it would be fine if you want to come over at nine. We can lay on the floor and watch a movie that we've already seen. Or we can talk and touch with the radio on. We'll wait for a while 'til they play our song, then we'll dance 'til the moonlight's gone. We shake our hips and bite our lips. City nights, bike rides, and a simple sigh. Hey, it would be nice if you could forget all my lies. Cause I'm all grown up now and I hate the way they taste.



It’s just that people are so fickle, they fall in love at different angles. So really I could lose you just as quickly as I’ve gotten you. And that’s the kind of thought that’s got me nervous, and worried if you’ll really think I’m worth it, when the rush wears off and you’re left with this busted person. But if you tell me you will, I will do what I can to believe it.

I use my heart when it wants to work, but these days I get so lost. And don't mind me, it's just a phase. Nothing a good drive alone can't fix. Put on some Jimmy Eat World, and just drive for days. Get sad, get lonely, get over it, yeah. All good things don't have to fade. A thousand reasons all turned into better ways to leave this still life far behind.



What I want from this is to learn to let go. No, not of you; of all that's been told. Killers reinvent and believe, and this leans on me like a rootless tree. So fuck you, and all we've been through. I said leave it, it's nothing to you. And if you hate me, hate me so good that you just let me out. It's hell when you're around.

"I know what it’s like to wanna erase your past, but you can’t pack away your past in boxes. It’s always gonna be a part of who you are. You need to know that, eventually, this isn’t gonna hurt so much. And the good times, they’re just gonna get easier to remember. And you’re gonna end up being a stronger person because of all the stuff that you’ve been through."



I like February, along with Tilly and The Wall. Pretty pictures and shirts that are too small, for my child-like figure that you're so in love with. I like the autumn's leaves and bright eyes. Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind, stands strong in my favorites of all time. Along with you, and your technicolor eyes. I love living life with you by my side, you're a smart kid with a beautiful smile. I like you, you like me. So let's lock all the doors, there's nothing outside we need to see, cause we've got love.



“Barefoot or first thing in the morning, I feel beautiful. I didn’t always feel that way, but I feel that way now. When somebody just loves you, and when you make somebody else happy, when your presence seems to make them happy, you suddenly feel like the most beautiful person in the world.”



So they’d lock themselves in the car and get lost in each other’s eyes. They sang along with the radio. He’d whisper in her ear and she’d laugh at his silly jokes, even if they were pointless. He’d grab her hand and not let go. He had no idea how happy it made her. She’d rest her head on his shoulder, close her eyes and listen to their song as he kissed her forehead. She memorized the touch of his lips. She didn’t want to leave anytime soon. And he’d give her his jacket when she was cold. It’d be 3 in the morning, but they would still be tangled up in each other. She knew he was something special. It was different how he moved her. Because when he told her “Goodnight” it felt like “Hello”.



I want to be your only constant in this ever changing universe. Either the sun that awakens the light in your eyes, or the moon that soothes you into slumber at night. Or maybe the rings around saturn with the way they'd find a way to gently enwrap you. Or the row of constellations you always look for, to guide you back home, to the place where we both know you've always belonged.

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Words are cheap, and love, it speaks the volumes that we need to make our hearts grow weak. So come on back, and have some laughs. Remember that the good times, they ain't so bad. Cause I am dying to try and find a way we can leave this all behind.



He's the air I would kill to breathe. Holds my love in his hands, still I'm searching for something. Out of breath, I am left, hoping someday I'll breathe again. It hurts to be here. I only wanted love from you. It hurts to be here. What am I gonna do?



It's too late, it’s too late to fix this. What’s the point? This is all so pointless. Sorry I tried so hard. And just, next time that I see you, just remind me not to act just like I care. All those memories you killed, and you’re just burning bridges you helped build. And everything that I say, I hope it brings you back to that one day. While all I have left to do is to just keep reminding myself to forget about you.



Trying to create something that's not there. A spark I saw as a bomb is just a means to an end. And I was just so happy to be out of my shell again, I don't think that I really cared for who or what. So for now I'll just have to keep it shut. If you're not ready, please stop acting like you are. How could I know that everything you say are lies about devotion and desire? And I know the spark inside your eyes was just the match I used to set myself on fire.



This is where I say I've had enough, and no one should ever feel the way that I feel now. A walking open wound, a trophy display of bruises, and I don't believe that I'm getting any better. Waiting here with hopes the phone will ring, and I'm thinking awful things, and I'm pretty sure that few would notice. And this apartment is starving for an argument, anything at all to break the silence. Wandering this house like I've never wanted out, and this is about as social as I get now. And I'm throwing away the letters that I am writing you, 'cause they would never do. I would never do. So don't be a liar, don't say that "everything's working" when everything's broken. And you smile like a saint, but you curse like a sailor. And your eyes say the joke's on me. But I'm not laughing and you're not leaving. And who do I think I am kidding, when I'm the only one locked in this cell.

Your lack of shame comes naturally. I should not be surprised. I should have seen it sooner. You expect me to apologize for things that you've done wrong, while you're inciting others. You're owning up to nothing, and I wish that I was gone, because you're not going anywhere.



I'm not sorry if things aren't the same, but sleepless nights are hardly worth the cheapness of your game. And if you know what I mean then live for yourself, because life is too short to waste it on somebody else. There was a time, and I swear that I cared, but I got burned, and now I walk with this fist in the air. I should have known all along. Don't talk to me, I'm as deaf as I am blind. Thanks for making me cheap, and thanks for the wasted time.



I suppose that's what perpetually haunts humankind. It's a bid of a grandiose statement, I'll admit, but think about it: everything you've ever done has been attached to this one word. You do what you do because you love it. You do things you don't love in order to suffer the necessary punishments and sacrifices to achieve that which you love.

Sometimes it gets tough believing in myself. Well, is it just me? It could be that I'm always wrong. I hear it in my head, twisting and lies 'til we're sure I'm wrong. But I forget how you broke my heart, or how you find yourself untimely falling for someone else. And every time something like this happens, you always make it seem like I did something wrong to you. Well guess what, I can't do this anymore. So next time you're thinking about telling me what I do wrong, think about all I let myself forget. Why can't you have me and be happy at the same time?



And he pulled you in, and he bit your lip, and he made you his. He looked deep into you as you lay together quiet in the grasp of dusk and summer. But you've already lost, when you only had barely enough to hang on.



If I could I would shrink myself, and sink through your skin to your blood cells, and remove whatever makes you hurt, but I am too weak to be your cure. Is this the way a toy feels when its batteries run dry? I am the watch you always wear but you forget to wind. Nobody plans to be half a world away at times like these, so I sat alone and waited out the night. The best part of what has happened was the part I must have missed. So I'm asking you to shine it on and stick around, I'm not writing my goodbyes.

I kiss your neck, I feel you breathing on my shoulder. Still I'm perfect, it must be you cause now it's over. I was so close, that was the most that I have ever been through. Now old cassettes and cigarettes will be the ones to save you. How can you ask for me to stay when all you ever do is go? Just go.



"I don’t love him, and he definitely doesn’t love me. Still, he semi-fills a gaping black hole inside me. That place wants love, maybe even needs love, but love is something I’m pretty sure doesn’t exist."



Sometimes she thinks she’s strong, sometimes she thinks she’s gone, past the point of feelin’ anything at all. Sometimes she’s sure she’s crazy, sometimes she feels like maybe the only way to survive is to stay angry. And that works fine most of the time, but some things make her cry. Like Bruce Springsteen, silver Sebrings, eggs scrambled hard, home-made birthday cards. A gray sweatshirt over faded jeans, with a hole in the pocket where a wallet’s supposed to be. Blue sheets on an unmade bed, strong shoulders with a summer tan and rain in the headlights. Yeah, some things make her cry. She didn’t shed a tear when he left her here, November 21st of last year. She said she’d be just fine, but maybe she lied, cause some things make her cry. Like drive-in movies, oatmeal cookies. 49’ers, all night diners. Blue eyes under a red ball cap. Wakin’ up alone at 3AM. Icy streets, New Year’s Eve. Fallin’ asleep on a brown love seat. And Runway lights. Yeah, some things make me cry.



And I felt I was on fire with the things I could have told you. I guess I just assumed that you eventually would ask. And I wouldn't have to bring up my so badly broken heart. And all those months I just wanted to sleep.

But it's you who I long for when I cannot sleep. It's enough it could drive me to drink. And I, I am almost nowhere and I'm getting there fast. You, you're the hope in my cold stare. You're the drink in my hand.



So when did cigarettes start cluttering your hands? I ponder this some nights alone when I undress. And what do you do with those girls I see you with, or better yet, what would I do if you came back? I’d say no, or I hope I could, but I still want you.



We were so charming, but the future was alarming, and now don't you go look so proud. Yes, guess who's laughing now? And we've learned that life is one big game, where the winners are all getting paid. So stop dragging your feet behind, you can't live with the folks all your life. So on those days home in your car, we jerked the steering wheel to the median, joking that we'd end our lives, but we weren't joking all the time.



Til tonight I never knew the difference between comfort and love. Although you're sleeping right next to me, well, it feels like you are wide awake in a distant dream, leading a life that is finally free of these endless nights and countless fights that turn us into who we hate to be.

But I’m yours if you want, and I can be yours to spend your life with. I can be yours, we’ll hide indoors, petrified of the world. And if you’d rather stay in at night, I can relate to that. And if it feels like your heart’s dried up, I can relate to that. And if you need someone at your side, I am out there.



You've been holding my hand with what I hope is the intent of never letting go. I've been holding your hand with the hope that you'll never loosen your grip and let me slip away. I've been spending my days with you, trying to make them last long enough in the hopes that you'll stay when the end of our time gets closer. Hoping that when that time comes, that it won't really be the end.



You’re in a car with a beautiful boy, and you’re trying not to tell him that you love him, and you’re trying to choke down the feeling, and you’re trembling, but he reaches over and he touches you, like a prayer for which no words exist, and you feel your heart taking root in your body, like you’ve discovered something you didn’t even have a name for.



I miss the way you sing low, so I can't hear your voice over the radio in my car. But you knew every word they sang. You knew you just the right thing to say, when the distance ripped us farther and farther and farther away. Maybe I fell too fast, maybe I pushed you away. Now you're gone and I'm afriad that you're never coming back this way again.

Hey there babe, don't mean to cut you off, but I've heard enough lies and you're dying to get caught. I'll let you go call all your friends. I'll be your friend in hell, until then I despise you, and I probably always will. I can't afford to make another mistake like this, 'cause this is more than I can take. I don't mean to leave angry, this is by your own devise. I'm sure this comes as no surprise.



I've really had it with the rain of the tears. The predictable storm that has come every year. And it sneaks in from shore with a bat in its hand. I'm trying, I'm trying, I'm trying, I'm trying. I can't. You're a thief and a witch, but I love you to death. You steal my heart and curse under your breath. But the one thing that I can most willingly prove, is that when you are gone I'll be fine without you.