I'm not sure you understand what this means to me, what you do to me. I'm willing to prove that you're the one. I regret to slip away. Now I know it was only you that I've been searching for, been missing all this time.



And this old highway seems to understand, leading me on to somewhere that no one knows my name. I got the window rolled down, I got the radio up, I'm doing all that I can to forget.


Did I ever tell you that I really love you, and I think about you all day? That I really miss you and wish I could kiss you. But why are you so far away? Since you've been gone, I've thought over and over about you inside my head and where I went wrong. Everyday I've been thinking a lot about all of the things you'd say since I went away. I guess I could call you and ask you "How are you?", but I really don't have much to say. So I sit all alone and I stare at the phone, and I hope that you're doing okay.





Take these misunderstandings, and send them back where they came from. Take these misunderstandings, it's hard enough to live life as it is.


And every morning that I wake, I make a point to check the date, in case I slept an extra day. I’ve crossed so many numbers out, but every time I count them there are so much more.




Driving slowly, watching the headlights in the rain. Funny how things change. Think of the good times. Wishing you were still with me. The way it used to be.





All we have left to do now is lay in our beds by ourselves every night. When we were laid right by the beach, the sand on our skin, the hair in your face, the salt on our lips when we kissed. And now I can't forget all of the little things we said with confidence. I was mistold that every good thing we have must come to a bitter end.





"I'm the sort of person that's always dwelling on the destination rather than the journey. Even when I'm in a great situation there's always this moving thought that it all is going to have to end."


Come on love, run with me.. get the hell out of this town, so we can get a better feel for each other. I'll take you back to when you remembered how you used to.. just live your life a little for me. Take the time to let it go. Step away and watch me grow. So, let's get a little closer now. Let's get a little closer now.





Things are so crazy lately, I feel unattached to all my feelings.
And the sad part is, I'm starting to think it's a good thing.





I had the most wonderful feeling once. It's the feeling I just keep trying to find in all the wrong people, just to feel it again. The feeling I've felt for one person, the only time it was real, where I didn't have to try. I want it back.


But it doesn't feel right holding someone else's hand. Together on phone lines and living at two opposite ends. But it scares me to think that you could find takers other than me and better than me.





There's still a little bit of your song in my ear. There's still a little bit of your words I long to hear. You step a little closer to me, so close that I can't see what's going on.





When I saw the break of day, I wished that I could fly away. instead of kneeling in the sand, catching teardrops in my hand. My heart is drenched in wine but you'll be on my mind forever.


I wish that my head was my own notebook. I wish every single one of my thoughts were written down. Okay, it doesn't have to be a notebook. It can be an air sick bag for all I care. I am this person inside my head I could only dream to be. She's so open, so alive, she's so thoughtful and she is brilliant. She dreams of things I cant imagine on seeing. She sees colors, not words or people. She sees rainbows of colors. She is life. She breathes flowers and exhales master pieces of art. She excels in education, music, and art. She is the person I can only be in my head. I'll keep her there. She's safe there. She hasn't been hurt, she hasn't seen pain. In my eyes, there's still hope for her. I bet her heart is full of love and compassion. The kind of compassion that's been torn from my eyes, my heart, and my finger tips. Her lips are untouched and so soft. I could only imagine what she is capable of. I'd probably hate her if she was real. I'd probably find some reason to hate her. And I'd probably tear her, from limb to limb. I'd make her cry, just to watch her mascara run. But, I bet even then, make up smeared, eyes red and puffy, I bet even then she's still beautiful.




I used to be such a burning example, I used to be so original. I used to care, I was being cared for. Made sure I showed it to those that I love. I used to sleep without a single stir


I miss the sound of your voice. The silence seems so loud. Cause there's no one else since I found you. I know it's been so hard, you should know.





My arms reach out for you. Why cant you take them? My heart burns only for you. Can you extinguish it? I love only to be loved by you. Why cant you love me too? I long only to be held and cared for. Why can't it be? Am I to die alone and bitter? What the hell is wrong with me? I no longer wish to love anything. Just cut the heart right out of me. Sometimes I choke on all the false love.






I thought you said that you'd come find me
I thought you said you'd be home by now
I heard you say that you'd come back here
So I wrote to remind you somehow





Throats raw from screaming and I haven't said a word
If your stomach feels weak then I suppose my work here is done


You can stay if you want to, and I'd write to you and tell you how you've always been so special to me. You can stay if you want to, and I'll try to keep you close to me.





I still believe someday you and me will find ourselves in love again. If there's one spark of hope left in my grasp, I'll be holding it with both hands. It's worth the risk of burning to have a second chance.





So I`ll hold you tonight like I would if you were mine to hold forever more. And I'll savor each touch that I wanted so much to feel before. How beautiful it is just to be like this. I wanna be with you.


He's simple yet confusing. His sparkling eyes make me weak at my words, they tremble. Days seem like years in this month of December. The winter coldens me for I have yet to sleep. And never will I give up trying cause you're everything to me.





I don't wanna sing if you're not listening
I don't wanna go anywhere that you don't follow





Love is a funny thing. You expect it to be easy. You expect it to be a world of roses and laughs and perfect moments that you find only in movies. You expect him to always say the right thing, and always know exactly how you feel, or exactly how to react to it. You expect him to calm you down when you're yelling or to chase you when you run away. You expect so much that you feel entirely, and utterly defeated when something doesn't exactly match up with all your plans. But that's the thing, love isn't a plan. It doesn't have a certain beginning and it certainly has no end or visible finish line to those deeply in it. Love happens, and it is so incredibly messy.


 


No sense in looking forward when I can still see you in everything.


I bet you've had a hard time walking into a room full of people on your own, right? Yeah, I know that. I know what it is not to feel like you're in the room until he looks at you or touches your hand or even makes a joke at your expense.




I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard




Every day seems the same to me. I sit around and think about how alone I feel, then I wind up rather enjoying loneliness because it's the comfort of being sad. Sometimes it feels so right, and sometimes I'd like to be around no one for ten straight years. But I know this feeling can't bring me places, and I know I'm losing lots of ground, but to keep up means to get up and why does it have to be the world keeps on changing while I just stay the same? I feel like being down doesn't mean enough to anyone anymore, and I guess the world has made emotion obsolete. And I don't think I feel the same cause after all, who says what happy really means?





Alright, that's it, I've had enough. I'm on my way to you. It's nauseating and I’m sick of waiting for all these pointless calls to go through.





I'm here again, a thousand miles away from you. A broken mess, just scattered pieces of who I am. I tried so hard, thought I could do this on my own. I've lost so much along the way


We were so charming, but the future was alarming. So on those days home in your car we jerked the steering wheel to the median, joking that we'd end our lives. But we weren't joking all the time.





Sunny days seem to hurt the most. I wear the pain like a heavy coat. I feel you everywhere I go. I see your smile, I see your face, I hear you laughing in the rain. I still can't believe you're gone.





And you brighten up the world with your eyes, and you're so damn lovely when you're on my mind.


And, I feel like I'm standing in the center of a snow globe that some seven year old kid will not stop shaking. I feel like everything around me is going 105 miles an hour, and I'm just stuck standing in the middle of traffic.





I’m trying, I need more time. You’ve gone, I’m just sitting here. You didn’t say anything at all. I’ve got a thousand words for not missing you. Don’t worry, I’m not going to call. I tell myself I’ll forget you. Oh, trust me. I will.





The hardest words to say are the words that mean the most, so I'll bite my tongue until it bleeds and I doubt you'll even know.


So, think about this; we all swallowed micro-sized microphones and they landed right next to our heart. We could keep the speakers in our pockets with the volume all of the way up. Everywhere we went, we grew accustomed to the sound of heartbeats instead of music, cars driving, cars honking, people talking, and put everything on hold. Got to know someone by their heartbeat. When you found someone with the same beat of your heart, and their beat synchronized with yours, that was your true love.





I hope you don't mind that I put down in words
how wonderful life is while you're in the world





Too often we sit back and take what life gives us. Like holding a bad hand of cards, always folding instead of raising the stakes. Never wanna bluff and go for it, afraid that you'll lose all you've got. But you can't win big if you don't bet big.


I've had a million chances to tell you everything.
So, is it smart, to be avoiding you like this?
Cause I don't want to fall in love again.





I wonder when, when I'll finally understand. Why time can wash away love like it was made of sand. And it's wonderful the pain that comes with regret. Sometimes you have to see the beauty in all of this loneliness. The streetlights flicker, and they fade, like every good intention that I've had.





And when I wake up I realize that everything's still wrong
I'm still here and you're still gone
It's not fair





That night we talked, we talked about life, about our times together. Maybe we aren't the same two kids we once were, but some things never change. Some things last, and even though I didn't know what was going to happen to us or where we were going, I just knew I couldn't let you out of my life.


It seems there's always something right there to remind me, like a silly joke or something on the TV. It ain't easy. When I hear our song, I get that same old feeling.





I've tried so hard to forget those past years.
And I hate that I can't see your face, or find the words to say.


Just hear this, and then I'll go..
You gave me more to live for,
more than you'll ever know.





And if all else fails, you can look up at the sky, because it's the same one that shines above you and I. And if all else fails, you can close your eyes and I’ll be right beside you, I’ll be the one by your side.



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Sometimes your nearness takes my breath away.. and all the things I want to say can find no voice. Then, in silence, I can only hope my eyes will speak my heart.



These few days I have decided to be lazy. They don't move or seem to end at all. And my heart, it is close enough to breaking that it hurts just listening to your songs.


I’ve thought for a long time that we were going to end up together, so I didn’t really care so much about the when of it. Now, though, the long road is starting to seem like the infinite road.



The speaker in this door is blown, so nothing sounds quite right. Taking my time taking this drive; waving this town goodbye. And I drive this ocean road and remember the small of your back, nape of your neck. I remember everything.


He's my kind of rain, like love from a drunken sky, confetti falling down all night. He's my kind of rain, he's the sunset's shadow, he's like rembrandt's light, he's the history that's made at night, he's my lost companion, he's my dreaming tree, together in this brief eternity. Summer days, winter snow.. he's all things to behold.




Remind me again just what you were saying when you walked in the room when the music was playing. When I was lost too, but in my own thoughts. And I could not find you. Tell me your story, I'm listening this time. I can get us some glasses and a bottle of wine. We can sit on the carpet, sit on the table, or sit on the moon. You can reach for my hand. You can say what you like.





You know that feeling? That feeling when you just want the right thing to fall into the right place, not only because it’s right, but because it will mean that such a thing is still possible? I want to believe that.


You're still here in my heart, not just an occasional thought in my head.





Raw love, like raw heartache, could blindside you. It could make you forget what you did not know to focus exclusively on those few pieces you could commit to heart.





Everyone, at some point in their lives, wakes up in the middle of the night with the feeling that they are all alone in the world.. and that nobody loves them now, and that nobody will ever love them, and that they will never have a decent night’s sleep again and will spend their lives wandering blearily around a loveless landscape, hoping desperately that their circumstances will improve, but suspecting, in their heart of hearts, that they will remain unloved forever. The best thing to do in these circumstances is to wake somebody else up, so that they can feel this way, too.


I will sleep another day. I don't really need to anyway. What's the point when my dreams are infected with words you used to say? I will breathe in a moment, as long as I keep my distance. I wouldn't want to go messing anything up.





If you hear a song that makes you cry and you don’t want to cry anymore, you don’t listen to that song anymore. But you can’t get away from yourself. You can’t decide not to see yourself anymore. You can’t decide to turn off the noise in your head.





I remember that time that you told me, you said love is touching souls. Surely you touched mine, cause part of you pours out of me in these lines from time to time.


I am the sky and you are the sea
You are the one who colors me




Everyone had a forever, but given a choice, this would be mine. The one that began in this moment, in a kiss that took my breath away, then gave it back - leaving me astounded, amazed, and most of all, alive.


All I ever wanted was for us to have a home and grow old together, but life never asked me what I wanted.






All the books you started reading, all the boys you started seeing, every half completed sentiment that you always meant to say, get stuck inside a memory, like a miracle unfinished and you only feel like going back to where there's no place to stay.


It takes courage to love, but pain through love is the purifying fire which those who love generously know. We all know people who are so much afraid of pain that they shut themselves up like clams in a shell and, giving out nothing, receive nothing and therefore shrink until life is a mere living death.





I had the feeling that you'd open up my eyes to a whole new world that had since been in disguise. But that day will most likely never come for me. And it's just my luck to end up getting stuck to everything you are.


People come into your life and people go. But it’s comforting to know the ones you love are always in your heart. And if you’re very lucky, a plane ride away.





But do you miss me? Do you miss our talks? Do you miss our touching and our midnight walks? Do you miss the ocean? Do you miss the sand? Do you miss me at all?


A photograph never grows old. You and I change, people change all through the months and years but a photograph always remains the same. How nice to look at a photograph of mother or father taken many years ago. You see them as you remember them. But as people live on, they change completely. That is why I think a photograph can be kind


No one else will know these lonely dreams. No one else will know that part of me.





And the song ends here, cause you're really not near. We haven't said a word in over a year. It just gives me hope, like music gives you rope to hold you right here.


The great thing about music is that it can just take you away. We all know that feeling when we hear a song that instantly catches our attention.. whether it was because the lyrics being sung were the same as thoughts in our head, or the rhythm was enough to just keep us there.. the feeling is wonderful. Music brings us all together. We’re all singing that chorus, knowing we’re not alone. Music can take us back. It can give us hope. Why does music make us feel so invincible? Because there’s no better escape from life.. we know it.
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The reality of the other person lies not in what he reveals to you, but what he cannot reveal to you. Therefore, if you would understand him, listen not to what he says, but rather to what he does not say.


"You’ve got to follow your passion. You’ve got to figure out what it is you love - who you really are. And have the courage to do that. I believe that the only courage anybody ever needs is the courage to follow your own dreams."





Let’s be honest. Sometimes there is nothing harder in life than being happy for somebody else.


I miss you even more than I could have believed. And I was prepared to miss you a good deal. So this letter is just really a sequel of pain. It is incredible how essential to me you have become.





Be yourself. Above all, let who you are, what you are, what you believe, shine through every sentence you write, every piece you finish.





Wherever I may run, even if it's dumb
I love only you, you are the only one


Now you're here and everything changes. Suddenly life means so much. I can't wait to wake up tomorrow and find out this promise is true. I would never have to go back to the day before you.





I watch you from a distance. I remember all of those instances.. when you smile, when you laugh, when you crash, when I'm there to catch you when you fall. And I miss you, and I wish you were here. I stopped breathing when you said you don't care anymore. Tell me that you're doing fine. I still remember every time. And everyone I know will say, that you are always a part of me. And I miss you like you never knew.





So tonight I'll sit and pick apart your pictures, and over-analyze your words. But the truth is that I've never fallen so hard. It's taking everything in me just to forget your sweater so far. And I can honestly say that I never, ever felt this way.


I hope that a little part of you still thinks of me





We do not do what we want, and yet we are responsible for what we are - that is the fact. Contemplation often makes life miserable. We should act more, think less, and stop watching ourselves live.


How fast can you have your bags packed? I'm ready to blow this town. Cause this feeling is getting too hard to explain. And when it seems like months that you and I have been away from each others arms, it's only been days. And I count down seconds til these plane rides will save me from a feeling I feel that's certainly made me. Oh, you know it's certainly made me too upset to describe how when I close my eyes, you're sitting right beside me on this bed here tonight.





I'll find repose in new ways, though I haven't slept in two days, cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone. But drenched in Vanilla twilight, I'll sit on the front porch all night, waist deep in thought. Because when I think of you, I don't feel so alone.


Oh my God, this hurts like hell. And how am I supposed to tell myself that if I keep singing my way through this that one day I'll be fine? One day, I'll be fine. One good thing about the road is that it opens up your eyes. It will make you miss your home and everything that flies in your heart will be as clear as all of heaven's days. Cause I believe that you're not gone. You're right here.





And it won't matter now whatever happens to me. Though the air speaks of all we'll never be, it won't trouble me.


And maybe it's true, I'm falling on you. Maybe there's a chance that you're stuck on me too. So maybe I'm wrong, it's all in my head. Maybe we're afraid of words we both haven't said.





So I stopped watching, I stopped caring. I lost all interest, and I stopped wearing these plastic smiles. I'll wash my hands clean. I'll forget that you forgot about me. And I'll live the life, the big city feeling, cause it's better than suburban dreaming. Living off the friends that hate you, who talk shit on me. Like I don't know who my real friends are anymore. No, I don't know you anymore.


The only way to find true happiness is to risk being completely cut open.





The Velveteen Rabbit was about how little kids get one toy that they love more than all the others, and even when its fur has been rubbed off, and it’s gone saggy with bits missing, the little child still thinks it’s the most beautiful toy in the world, and can’t bear to be parted from it. That’s how it works, when people really love each other.


I’m not the silly romantic you think. I don’t want the heavens or the shooting stars. I don’t want gemstones or gold. I have those things already. I want a steady hand. A kind soul. I want to fall asleep, and wake, knowing my heart is safe. I want to love, and be loved.


 


We could go to the cinema, big effects and big name stars. We could go to that private view, but, darling, these days, my favorite view is you. Let's just bend the invitation, leave our bikes down at the station, and lose all sense of direction. I'm going to get lost with you.


But I should have known this right from the start.. only hope can keep me together. Love can mend you life, but love can break your heart.





There's always going to be an occasional night when you break down and cry, because you know things will never be the same.

There are some people who meet that somebody that they can never stop loving, no matter how hard they try. I wouldn't expect you to understand that, or even believe it.. but trust me, there are some loves that don't go away. And maybe that makes them crazy.. but we all should be lucky enough to end up with somebody who has a little of that insanity, someone who never lets go, someone who cherishes you forever.





Sometimes it takes hundreds of miles and hours of quiet bus rides to make you remember how much you love someone. I can't sleep. And I miss you. And the city and I haven't been breathing the same. It's never easy, regardless of the season.





I guess by now I should know enough about loss to realize that you never really stop missing someone, you just learn to live around the huge gaping hole of their absence.


Here we go at it three years later. Will you help me to dream it all up again? Tired of the same song everyone's singing, rather be lost with you instead.


 


And the light in your eyes makes me feel like there's something much better out there.


If I could hear the echoes from five years back, they would join me in accord, because I've been saying the same thing for years now.. "Things are going to have to change in the morning."





You know those people who can predict when change is coming in their life? I'm not one of them. Change has a way of just walking up and punching me in the face.


 


We'll pace the roads and we'll paint the skies. Our path is plagued with discontent goodbyes. We're striking the days so we can burn the nights, and I'll never look back on what I've left behind.


There isn’t a moment of my day that isn’t spent wondering where you are, what you’re doing, how you’re feeling. Even in the quiet of the night, when everything is still and I am nearly asleep, there’s a part of me that is still wondering.





Years go by, and nothing's slowing down the time. Years go by, and then they're wasted. All this time, I thought that I gained everything. But you're not mine.. I'm so empty.





Times when I was lost and low, I looked to you to pull me through. Now I need to tell you that you were the best I ever had. And we have come so far, but our lives may never change.





Because I still wonder where you are, and I wonder what you do.
Are you somewhere feeling lonely, or is someone loving you?



And it's beginning to get to me, that I know more of the stars and sea, than I do of what's in your head.





Some boys I know, they speak with broken mouths. I have to sit inside their stomachs to find out what they're really about. But not like the days when the sky is blue and all that I had was a little of me and a little of you.


And it kills me inside to see in you, all that I’ll never have. I want it, I want it all. I know you have the power to make me feel alive. Sweetheart, it’s okay to be loved.





"I want to draw something that means something to someone. You know? I want to draw blind faith or a fading summer, or just a moment of clarity. It’s like, when you go and see a really great band, live for the first time and, you know, and nobody’s saying it, but everybody’s thinking it.. we have something to believe in again. I want to draw that feeling, but I can’t. And if I can’t be great at it, then I don’t want to ruin it. It’s too important to me."





I want someone to miss. That way, whenever I get sad, I can pretend that you're here. Protecting me, comforting me and telling me that everything will be okay.





When you're stuck loving someone, all you wanna do is stay away. But, when that person shows even the smallest gesture of affection, all your efforts of moving on go down the drain.



All human wisdom is summed up in two words - wait and hope.





I do not want just a piece of you and a piece of your life. Even if you were able, which you are not, to give me the biggest piece, that is not what I want. I want all of you and every part of you and your day.



And I cannot stop thinking about you. I cannot stop wondering if you’re constantly thinking about me. Don't close your eyes dear, I'm still staring. I won't lie dear, I'm still breathing. Even though your beauty is breathtaking.





"Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves. Do not now seek the answers, which cannot be given you because you would not be able to live them. And the point is to live everything. Live the question. "





Well I can't stop talking for fear of listening to unwelcome sound. And you haven’t called me in weeks and honestly, it's bringing me down. Oh, I feel like I wouldn’t like me if I met me. I feel like you wouldn’t like me if you met me. And don’t you worry, there’s still time. There’s nothing to live for when I’m sleeping alone. And I wash the windows outside in hopes that the glare will bring you around.


Many people need desperately to receive this message.. "I feel and think much as you do. Care about many of the things you care about, although most people do not care about them. You are not alone."


 


You don't know it but I wait and wait for you to catch on



Everything I need is everything you are. And I'm taking a chance. This time could be different. This could be all I’m waiting for.





I wasn't on a mountain when it came to me. All my life's been wasted, chasing shallow dreams. So here we are, let me lift you up and show you this world over me. And all these things.. what I've gained and what I've seen. It can't compare to the love that you could give to me.



We are not that different from each other, we just want somebody to discover who we really are when we drop our guard.. that love has got to start with you and me.





"I used to hit every wall there was, I used to run away from love. All I ever wanted was right here. But I had to reach way down inside. I had to have faith I'd find no fear."


 
All I ever do is wish things were different.
This envy is destroying me and it is obvious.





It’s just one of those days when everything is completely wrong, and yet you don’t even know why you’re so depressed. And it’s one of those days when you wish that everyone would just leave you alone and go away. Yeah it’s one of those days when all you need is to be left alone. Yet at the same time you wish someone out there would care.



I can look anywhere in the world but at you.
And it hurts to look anywhere in the world but at you.





I've heard it's said that people come into our lives for a reason, bringing something we must learn, and we are led to those who help us most to grow, if we let them, and we help them in return. Well, I don't know if I believe that's true, but I know I'm who I am today because I knew you.



If you love somebody, let them go. For if they return, they were always yours. And if they don’t, they never were.





Do you know how much you meant to me? Oh no. Do you know I still carry the memories? Oh no. Did you know that for me letting go wasn’t easy? Oh no, no you don’t.



You are lovely tonight.. lay here beside me. I see the rest of my life with you.





I started sending you a note on how I hope that you’re happy. I hear you're somewhere in the sand, and how I wish I was an ocean. Maybe then I'd get to see you again.





Just when I think I'm close enough you take a step backwards



If you're feeling frightened about what comes next, don't be. Embrace the uncertainty. Allow it to lead you places. Be brave as it challenges you to exercise both your heart and your mind as you create your own path towards happiness, don't waste time with regret. Spin wildly into your next action. Enjoy the present, each moment, as it comes; because you'll never get another one quite like it. And if you should ever look up and find yourself lost, simply take a breath and start over. Retrace your steps and go back to the purest place in your heart... where your hope lives. You'll find you’re way again.





"I don't scratch my head unless it itches and I don't dance unless I hear some music. I will not be intimidated - that's just the way it is."



I admit I miss seeing your face. And being alone is starting to take its toll. I'm cold and it's getting old..





I'm in one of those moods that nothing is really wrong in my life, but my brain keeps on insisting that there is. Or maybe it's my heart that's doing the insisting. I can't really tell. You know that feeling?



"Not all of us can do great things. But we can do small things with great love."





I'll be true, I'll be useful, I'll be cavalier. I'll be yours my dear. And I'll belong to you, if you'll just let me through.



I watched you sleeping quietly in my bed. You don't know this now, but there's some things that need to be said. It's all that I can hear, it's more than I can bear. What if I fall and hurt myself, would you know how to fix me? What if I went and lost myself, would you know where to find me? If I forgot who I am, would you please remind me? Cause without you things go hazy.





I'm the one who fell in love, and stayed that way.



You had me several years ago when I was still quite naive. Well, you said that we made such a pretty pair and that you would never leave. But you gave away the things you loved, and one of them was me.





And if you'd rather stay in at night, I can relate to that. And if it feels like your heart's dried up, I can relate to that.


My choice is what I choose to do and if I’m causing no harm it shouldn’t bother you





I admit, I'm still watching the days go by. Sleeping alone is starting to break me down. It's cold, but I should've known.





Still, for your smile, I would run another mile.. barefoot and bruised, and laughing all the while



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Colors surround all that make all these dreams of mine real. But all that I've found is a reason for why I am here. I lay on the couch with my dreams and the smell of his hair. Cause when he's around I don't wanna be nowhere but there.



And I'm choking right along with the words in my throat. I'm falling back in love with the letter you wrote. And I think that I was wrong, but I guess I don't know. Figure that I'll wait until you tell me so.


How far do I have to go to make you understand
I want to make this work so much it hurts

 


He glances over but he keeps on walking down that street. All I can do is hope that he is thinking of me. If I could blink. If I could breathe. If I could get my legs to move. Well this could be the day I get this boy to love me. Well I turn pale when he walks by. I am lost in his eyes. He is always on my mind.




See, I'd love to spend the night. But you found someone else to lay beside. And I know it makes sense, but it's like sand in my eyes.





And all I ask of you are honest words, simple truths, a place to lay my head when I get lost.


I will always love you, as simple as that sounds. I'd swim an ocean deep as your blue eyes to close the distance that's between us right now.




I've just been thinking how it's harder every year to find excuses that'll keep me in the clear. The arbitrary lines I impress in the sand, the proof that piles in my trash can, while the skin on my hands is looking older every day. The lies I've told have turned to leather on my face. The love I've lost has turned to needles in my heart. But I'm to blame for all the bad parts. They're the choices I've made, hey hey.


and I, I would honestly love you now
but I would lovingly let you down
oh, I have the hardest time resisting you



And like I really deserve a chance to sit across a table and tell you that I think you're wonderful, and I think you're something special. I guess this is my only chance to say I wish I knew you because I'm sure you're wonderful if I'd get to know you.


I've been holding back this feeling, so I've got some things to say to you. I've seen it all so I thought, but I never seen nobody shine the way you do. The way you walk, way you talk, way you say my name. It's beautiful, wonderful, don't you ever change.





I laugh cause it's so damn funny, that I can't even see anyone when he's with me.


I will always be in awe with the world, always spiritually connected. I have seen the beauty of life, and to take it in all at once.. euphoric. I'm going to finish this spiritual journey. If I become lost, don't fret. I will come back with empowering knowledge. There are a million things left for me to discover.



We cling to music, to poems, to quotes, to writing, to art, because we desperately want to feel together. We want to know that we are not going crazy and that somewhere else out there, someone is feeling exactly what you are feeling. We love everything that is tied up neatly, easily, and simply but when we can not find that, it scares the hell out of us, to not know the next step, or where things are headed. Being unsure is never part of our plan. But it's those moments, the ones where you risk it and take a chance regardless of how vulnerable it makes us, that help us remember that life is larger than we'll ever know.


Wherever you lay your head,
your heart stays here with me.





With my fingertips, I trace on your bare skin all of the things I'd like to say but cannot speak. You mean everything. There not quite words enough, to tell you all the things that you've become for me.


We came here together, most of us unprepared
We were all worried, we were all a little scared
There were times we felt alone, times we felt sad
But it took times like those to realize what we had





I've been watching your world from afar. I've been trying to be where you are. And I've been secretly falling apart, unseen. To me, you're strange and you're beautiful. You'd be so perfect with me. But you just can't see. You turn every head, but you don't see me.


These thoughtless nights have put me through so much pain. Just the thought of being without you for days. I never knew I could love someone so much. I've lost track of hours since our lips have touched. And now I realize how much you mean to me.





I'm a million miles away from you, I can't get you off my mind
Not that I'm trying, but all I want is to hold you again


And if I'm the lucky one who gets to take your heart away, I will bring you out to dinner with the money that I've saved, I will sing you every evening all the reasons that I do, that if home is where the heart is then I'm only home with you.





October air reminds me of all the seasons of your love, and what it was like when we were together. The smell of fall is everywhere, and though it seems I just don't care, cause now you've gone away.


All I find are faded pictures from a distant life
And I wish to God I could see your eyes


The city is making me sick, and the season's getting colder. And it's not helping now that we're growing so much older. In all this monotony, oh darling it's getting to me. And how do they expect for me to plan out my life so precisely? And all this negativity, you know it's getting to me. I just don't understand why we all can't run away. Oh, why can't we just run away?



Yeah that's what my momma told me. And just like those kids, I didn't wanna listen to no one. Yeah there's nothing you can do, there's nothing you can say. And I know how it feels when love goes away.


If you're looking for a way out
I won't stand in your way
If you're looking for a way out
don't stop at the tears that I'm crying
they'll only make you wanna stay
Don't kiss me again cause I'm trying
to keep you from running away.




Scattered shadows on a wall, you watch the long light fall. Some impressions stay and some will fade. Tattered shoes outside your door, clothes all on the floor. Your life feels like the morning after all year long. Every day it starts again and you cannot say if you're happy. You keep trying to be, try harder. Maybe this is not your year. Movies, TV screens reflect just what you expected. There's a world of shiny people somewhere else out there following their bliss, living easy, getting kissed, while you wonder what else you're doing wrong. Breathe through it, write a list of desires, make a toast, make a wish, slash some tires, paint a heart repeating, beating 'don't give up, don't give up, don't give up'.





Your beauty, to me, will never be doubted. You are a light, a light so vivid that it's impossible to turn away, impossible not to thank. Oh, thank you for your light. The woes of the world are now gone. To be in your arms is like being uplifted by the world's calmest zephyr. I am content. I am comfortable. Even if we shall roll through the most dangerous hills that dare interrupt our steadiness, my grip will not weaken. You make me feel strong.





So few come and don't go
will you, won't you
be the one I'll always know?


I wish that everyone was a different color. And when you find the other person that's the same color as you, then you know he's your soul mate. There will be people close to your color along the way, but only one person who's truly the same color.





And so I dropped out of my own race. A race with no finish line, no first or last place. These faces all rush right past me. I turn and walk away.


Have you ever been a part of something that you thought would never end? And then of course it did. Have you ever felt the weight inside you pulling away inside your skin? And then something had to give.





hey, when you leave me, you leave me with a hope that my dream with you might come true.


I'm terrified to speak, but you'd expect that from me. I'm mixed up. I'll be blunt. Now the rain is just washing you out of my hair, and out of my mind.





Remember her spirit and charm, her selfless caring for others, her laugh, and her contagious smile. Be a good friend and make others feel welcome and loved- especially those who need it the most. Remember that life is a gift. Hold your family close to your heart and most of all make sure you don’t miss any of the fun.


I know someday you'll have a beautiful life. I know you'll be a sun in somebody else's sky. But why? Why? Why can't it be mine?





There you are with your perfect way, you've got that little shine in your eyes. To hear one word would make my day, but there's no room for me in your life. Oh, you've got me down on my knees. Oh, and in my mind I can see how perfect everything could be, but you won't give us a try.


Sometimes, the last thing you want comes in first
Sometimes, the first thing you want never comes
I know that waiting is all you can do, sometimes





Forgiveness does not always lead to a healed relationship. Some people are not capable of love, and it might be wise to let them go, along with your anger. Wish them well and let them go their way. It doesn't matter if the person who hurt you deserves to be forgiven. Forgiveness is a gift you give yourself. You have things to do and you want to move on.


I just can't keep my hands off of you
you look so small all wrapped up in my arms
I am so in love with you





I can see you're now awake. Let me assure you friend, every day is ice cream and chocolate cake. And what you make of it, let me say, you get what you take from it, so be amazed. And never stop, never stop, never stop. You gotta be brave. Cause all this beauty, you might have to close your eyes, and slowly open wide, and watch the sun rise.


There are ways in, journeys to the center of life, through time; through air, matter, dream and thought. The ways are not always mapped or charted, but sometimes being lost, if there is such a thing, is the sweetest place to be. And always, in this search, a person might find that she is already there, at the center of the world. it may be a broken world, but it is glorious nonetheless.




Two years now since I met you, and I just can't forget about you. You don't know what you do to me, oh, you don't know what you're doing to me. And I'm not lost, I'm just a little confused on what to do.


It's like a quarter to three and I just can't sleep, cause I'm thinking of you, and all those times we cried. Did we really try? Now I'm dreaming in blue. No matter where we say goodbye, I tell you baby, keep your head high. I'll wait for love. I'll wait for you. I'll wait for love. I'll wait, will you? When times are hard, I'll think of you. I'll wait for love.





He walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly,
The kind of flawless I wish I could be


I'm seriously contemplating chewing off my tongue to prevent from screaming out your name in these endless nights to come.





What makes it so easy for you to be walking by?
And what did I do that you can't seem to want me?
And why do we lie here and whisper goodbyes?
And where can I go that your pictures won't haunt me?
What makes it so easy for you to be walking by?


Please drag me away from this, I just don't want to go. And I'm taking in everything and just want to know. I've lost all direction and reason and seem so low. To everyone, every time, only if they'd know.





What I used to be will pass away, and then you'll see
That all I want now is happiness for you and me



I've been waiting for a change. Not like this one, I meant something stronger. I'm looking at one face and staring at another. Where, oh where did we go wrong.



Maybe you'll find that there are better days if you leave these days behind.





Cause I can't help it if you look like an angel. Can't help I if I wanna kiss you in the rain. So come feel this magic I've been feeling since I met you. Can't help it if there's no one else, I can't help myself.


So maybe there’s not a lot to say, or maybe I’m wrong doing things my way. Or maybe things will be okay, if I get it together and do something clever, but make it better with you. So tell me where did I go wrong before you, before you came along? Well, it seems like I was lost.



Don't get me wrong if I'm looking kind of dazzled. I see neon lights whenever you walk by. Don't get me wrong if I'm looking so distracted. I'm thinking about the fireworks that go off when you smile.

And I'll sing songs to help me stay up all night long, cause I don't want to go to sleep. And I'll sing a song and I hope you're listening carefully. And know exactly what I mean.


 
I'm not supposed to be scared of anything, but I don't know where I am. I wish that I could move but I'm exhausted and nobody understands. I'm trying hard to breathe now, but there's no air in my lungs. There's no one here to talk to when the pain inside is making me numb.


Finding myself in a place I've never been, where I don't know myself or anyone else. I can dream about the past or I can just let it go. I lost track of time five days ago. What is it about you that makes me want to stay? Is it all the love, or is it just the pain?





Now you spend the days walking around in your basement remembering the ways you used to laugh and collect your favorite photographs. But now you can't cause you hate the past and that's not alright. And no, you're not doing just fine.


Everyone here knows everyone here is thinking about somebody else. It's best if we all keep it under our heads. I couldn't tell if anyone here was feeling the way I do. But I'm lonely now, and I don't know how to get it back to good.





There's a line drawn between the beginning and end of anything,
and somehow we find hope every time we cross that line.


It seems like they've got it all, and all I have is you. Wait, how can I entertain these thoughts of a life without you? I'm losing my mind, and with that, the love of my life.


  


"When you're a kid, it's Halloween candy. You hide it from your parents and you eat it until you get sick. In college, it's the heavy combo of youth, tequila and well... you know. As a surgeon, you take as much of the good as you can get because it doesn't come around nearly as often as it should. Because good things aren't always what they seem. Too much of anything, even love, is not always a good thing."


So when I'm lost in a crowd, I hope that you'll pick me out. I long to be found, the grass grew high, I laid down. Now I'll wait for a hand to lift me up, help me stand. I've been laying so long, don't wanna lay here no more.



I want to bust the world wide open the way you do when you're filled with youth. I want to engage with lovers and people and fellow cops. I want to be physical and I also want to ask the big questions. I want to taste the tastes and fix the problems. I want to run headlong into chaos and bad guys and darkness and friends and fun and laugh, laugh, laugh. I want to be the best friend and I want to be the greatest aunt and the most complicated daughter. I want to be the mystery in the room and I want to be known.


Somewhere we know that without silence, words lose their meaning. That without listening, speaking no longer heals. That without distance, closeness cannot cure.




Every time, I think everything’s going really well. I mean, I try really hard - it all fucks up. And I think that maybe I’m just one of those people that doesn’t deserve to be happy.


What's holding me back is the thought of time we never had
my world's hanging by three words that I can't bear to say



The room was silent as we all tried so hard to remember the way it feels to be alive. Something’s gotta change, things cannot stay the same. So goodnight, goodnight. Things will be alright.


But some emotions don't make a lot of noise. It's hard to hear pride. Caring is real faint- like a heartbeat. And pure love- why, some days it's so quiet, you don't even know it's there.



In fact, I wish your heart was mine. And I can hear the memory in my ears. Back to the years and all those tears. But hear me when I say I'm glad we steered that way, because now we're here. Do you want to get away? Get in the car we can leave today. You want to celebrate our just made little holiday? Because even though we never get things right, and it gets so old just saying we'll keep trying, it's mine to decide when I'll be alright. I know you're going crazy, but happy is all that you make me. And now things are gonna get better baby. I know everything went wrong, but now it's time to get some better days. Cause I don't want to keep acting this way.




I hope you need this now,
cause I know I still do


I know the distance is a factor but I stretch as often as I can. My goal is to reach your hands any day now. Please don't blame me for trying to fix this one last time. I have a hard time as it is because I miss you, love.





And then when your plane touches solid ground, and the taxi whisks you on into town, in the glittering lights I’ll be all around, cause we belong with each other.


I will not wait to love as best as I can. We thought we were young and that there would be time to love well sometime in the future. This is a terrible way to think. It is no way to live, to wait to love.





Color the coast with your smile
it's the most genuine thing I've ever seen
I was so lost, but now, I believe


When it comes to love, you need not fall but rather surrender, surrender to the idea that you must love yourself before you can love another. You must absolutely trust yourself before you can absolutely trust another and most importantly, you must accept yourself before you can accept flaws of another.





Well, see what you want to see. You should see it all. Well, take what you want from, you deserve it all. Nine times out of ten our hearts just get dissolved. Well, I want a better place or just a better way to fall. But one time out of ten, everything is perfect for us all. Well, I want a better place or just a better way to fall.





Maybe it makes sense now. Maybe somewhere in all of this there’s a reason. Maybe somewhere in all of this there’s a why. Maybe somewhere there’s that thing that lets you tie it all up with a neat bow and bury it in the backyard. But nothing, not getting angry, not prayers, and not tears, nothing can make something that happened unhappen.


My body aches, it heaves, it shakes. All somersaults through so-called art. And I still don't know exactly who I am. I never will, amen.





Worlds are spinning round. There's no sign of slowing down. So won't you take a breath, just take a breath. People change, and promises are broken. Clouds can move and skies will be wide open. Don't forget to take a breath.


Does your memory play tricks on you? Does it do that thing where one day, every touch, every glance, every moment is so crystal clear you can feel it, like it’s happening right now? Then it does the other thing, where you struggle to remember how it felt to be in their arms, to gaze at their face, to touch their lips so gently with yours.





The hardest part isn't choosing,
it's living with the choice you make.


You're the dream that hasn't ended, and I'm still anxious for rest. Your words they seem to hang above my head. You're the bud before the flower, unfurls into full bloom. Captivating beauty, but it maybe all too soon. You're the song that writes a story, but leaves a lot to read. The closest thing to perfect, but the farthest thing from me.




Pain is when you can’t breathe, even if your chest still rises and falls. Sadness is when you look out the window and think the rain are your tears. Loneliness is when you still feel a hand touching yours, even if there’s none. Desperation is when you wait for someone that never comes. And love is when you experience all those things & still open your heart to someone that never got there.


It's there. I know it is. Because when I look at you, I can feel it.




If you give this one more shot, I'll make it up in every way. I'll call you twice a day and drive you to the airport just so I can watch you leave... even if you're leaving me.



You got out the wrong side of bed, and liked it
The only love you get is unrequited
Mourning Monday all week long's not healthily
But being happy's only for the wealthy
You can't see past the worst case scenario
You'd be happier instead if you'd stayed in bed




I called my momma, she was out for a walk. Consoled a cup of coffee, but it didn't wanna to talk. So I picked up the paper, it was more bad news. More hearts being broken, or people being used. Put on my coat in the pouring rain. I saw a movie, it just wasn't the same. Cause it was happy, and I was sad. And it made me miss you, oh so bad.





So I look in your direction,
but you pay me no attention.
And you know how much I need you,
but you never even see me.


Somewhere, things must be beautiful and vivid. Somewhere else, life has to be beautiful and vivid and rich. Not like this muted palette - a pale blue bedroom, washed out sunny sky, dull green yellow brown of the fields. Here, I know every twist of the road, every blade of grass, every face in this town and I am suffocating.





"When the worst case scenario finally comes true, clinging to hope is all you've got."


I don't know what I want, so don't ask me, cause I'm still trying to figure it out. Don't know what's down this road, I'm just walking, trying to see through the rain coming down, even though I'm not the only one who feels the way I do.




This world isn't easy, don't try to understand it. You're allowed to keep what you want inside, and it's okay not to be easy to read. Cause the people that love you the most will love you so much more than those things.


I could stay a while, but sooner or later I'll break your smile. And I can tell a joke, but one of these days I'm bound to choke. And we could share a kiss, but I feel like I can't go through with this. And I bet we could build a home, but I know the right thing for me to do is to leave you alone.





I guess that I'm wrong for falling in love, but you're still the one that I'm dreaming of. I guess that it's you I want to hold onto, but you're holding onto someone else.


I keep trying to tell myself it is always worth it. That I’d regret either decision there was to make. But is it really so clear cut? Is it really worth the inevitable heartache?


 


When I say out loud, "I want to get out of this”
I wonder, is there anything I'm going to miss?


Thought you were the only fish in the sea. Thought you were the only leaf on my tree. Thought that you would miss me when we took that walk. Thought you were the only paint on my wall. But I was wrong, so wrong. Been thinking about this for far too long. And I hate it. And I'm tired, so tired.





So it seems we’re incomplete. We are songs with no sound. So it seems the ship has sailed but the captain’s left town. It’s not improbable, just plain impossible. I can’t take you seriously now.


You took your coat off and stood in the rain. You were always crazy like that. I watched from my window. Always felt like I was outside looking in on you. You were always the mysterious one, with dark eyes and careless hair. You were fashionably sensitive, but too cool to care. Then you stood in my doorway, With nothing to say, besides some comment on the weather. Well in case you failed to notice, in case you failed to see, this is my heart bleeding before you. This is me down on my knees. And these foolish games are tearing me apart. Your thoughtless words are breaking my heart. You're breaking my heart.




I've been thinking about you, I've been dreaming about you, every night and everyday. I keep waiting on you, been praying for you, that maybe you'll come back again someday.


Can I just see you every morning when I open my eyes? Can I just feel your heart beating beside me, every night? Can we just feel this way together til the end of all time? Can I just spend my life with you?